Faith Awakened

Have you ever felt like you were supposed to DO SOMETHING but have no idea WHAT that something is? That deep down feeling that things are going to be different but unsure of what that even means. This has happened a good handful of times in my life but specifically the past few years, it's been heavier than I've ever felt it. I know God is on the move, that He's equipping me for His plan and purpose for my life... even though I'm not sure where that is taking me.

I have always loved God. I was raised in church and baptized at 8. I've never questioned or wavered in my faith. That doesn't mean that life has been perfect. Quite the contrary. I've lived a lot of life in the wilderness I like to say. A few years ago though, I was at a women's Christian conference with a friend and felt something stirring. The topic was taken from Jennie Allen's Find Your People book. Here I was 48 years old, having lived a lot of life and in a busy season, realizing that God was begin to reveal to me some hard truths and that He wanted ME to do something. I couldn't shake the feelings I was having and I also tried hard to talk myself out of taking the actions I was feeling called to take. I didn't have a lot of friends, actually that's been true majority of my life. Maybe 1-2 special friendships outside of my own adult children. I preferred to blend into the background and be invisible and unseen. It's where I was most comfortable. I observed others but didn't feel included most of the time. I left the venue with such clarity but that was so confusing! Ever been there? I knew I was supposed to take action and in faith, I did just that. I sent an email that was me raising my hand to try to connect women with a resource I learned about at the conference and I waited.

The past few years have been many times trying to discern God's voice. What He wants me to do with what's in front of me. One thing is so clear to me, even looking back today with more hard lessons learned that I wish I could've been spared.... once my faith was awakened, it wouldn't slumber again. I have seen God work in my life and in the lives of so many others with this seemingly simple raise of my hand. I have faced judgement, I have gained beautiful friendships, I've even lost friendships I've cherished... I've given it all to Him. It's no longer MY will, it's all His. I've felt crazy. I've felt betrayed. I've wanted to stop. I've yelled at God when things appear to be derailing. But, that's faith. Believing in what cannot be seen. I believe God is doing something from that one moment I leaned in to hear His voice over mine. Creating this website is even part of that. All I know is that small mustard seed faith I had a few years ago is growing into that mustard tree... and it's not stopping. God is paving a way and I'm here for it all.

~ Matthew 17:20 He replied, "Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there,' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you."

I urge you, my sweet friend, if you're feeling stirring within, begin to pray and ask for God to reveal the next step for you to take ... and then MOVE. Let it awake within you. He's just waiting for you to raise your hand.

~ Matthew 9:37 Then He replied to His disciples, "The harvest is plentiful but the workers are few."